So as I sit on my kitchen counter, watching the door close on another chapter in my life, I can't help but want to vent out all the negativity. But let's be honest, it would only cause more damage on an un-fixable situation. Sometimes, as great as someone is, they may just not be the person you are meant to end up with. The hardest part, is coming to that realization. You learn a lot about yourself in times like this. I learned that I have to keep moving forward, with laughter..... That being said, let me explain to you my day after a break up.
As I lay in bed the next morning, crying in self-pity, I get a text from my mother telling me to meet them for lunch. I tell her she's nuts and she immediately starts the mom talk. "Oh you cannot just lay there and be depressed, you have to get up and do something. No one is going to make this better but you... Blah Blah BLAH!" Everything I didn't want to hear. So what do I do? Of course. I get up and meet my parents for lunch. Here we are, eating our subs (or crying into mine), we start laughing at the poor dad in his Honda mini van taking a picture of the gorgeous Ferrari parked next to it. Poor dude. Four kids and every dream killed. So we start looking around, trying to figure out who is driving the Ferrari. Douche with his bluetooth in? Well dressed older man and bitchy wife? Nah, Michael Redd. Ladies, he is gorgeous... oh and loves his kids and fiance getting into the brand new Rover. Crap. So much for that plan.
I finish choking down my sandwich and tell my momma I didn't want to be alone. So she rides with me back to their place and we lay on the couch and vent about life. Then she leaves me for a double date! Thanks Mom and Dad. Jerks. Glad you all have a life. Luckily she left me the credit card to order my Christmas gifts. It took all I had not to buy a killer pair of stilettos! I turn off the sappy movie I'm watching and am about to just crash at 7:00 when my girlfriend asked if I want to go to a party. Heck yeah! I need booze and lots of it at this point. So we get already and then she drops the bomb... Oh yeah, it's an engagement party. Seriously? Lovely. The day after my break up, less than 24 hours. Yes, let me go celebrate someone else's wonderful relationship. I'm not bitter. So I get all dressed up and am actually holding it together. It was just nice to be around people, and vodka. Oh but wait... it gets better... Who walks in?? The best man... A guy I went out on a date with a couple of years ago and to say the least, never spoke to again. Hello Awkward! At this point, I want to just cry but all I can do is laugh uncontrollably. This is my life. I have never met these people before in my life and the best man just happens to be a bad date. Really? I broke the ice and said hello and all was good, until all of the girls were standing around talking about working out, body shapes and what not, when the entire place goes silent as I blurt out my cup size... Thank god it was only about 20 degrees outside because I was about as red and hot as the inside of an oven. Why are the gods so cruel? Story of my life. Never a dull moment. Thank you for always making it interesting.
So what's next? God only knows. I think I need to work on me... but if the hot football player looking guy who checked me out at the Redbox tonight just happens to find my number, go ahead and use it. I'll be free! Until then... here we go again :)
