Being single has it's perks, too. Take for instance, I haven't had my last first kiss. Is there anything sexier than a first kiss?? The anticipation after a long date, a night of drinking and flirting, someone you have had a crush on for a few years... when the times comes... the knees get weak, chills run down your spine and you drop your drink. HAHA. A kiss can take you from a dorky, nervous young girl to a sexy, confident woman in seconds.
No kiss is ever the same. My first kiss had all the potential to be amazing, went to a movie, he was older, in the pouring down rain, dropping me off at the front door... but it was just weird and awkward considering I had no idea what I was doing. From then out, they've been all over the board. I've had the kind that make you back away slowly, trying not to offend the other person but it's just so bad. Some are just fun an playful and always welcomed! Ugh, the unwelcomed kind. The 'holy crap did that just happen' kind. There should be a documentary on this stuff.
You can tell a lot about a person, and what they are thinking, just by a kiss. Do they grab your hand? Face? HAIR? Just don't attack us and if you do, add a little soft side in there somewhere like pushing their bangs out of their face or pulling up their sleeve that is sliding down. And oh lord, what about the guys who find the need to poke you with their tongue, while others act like it's a wet rag. Come on guys... Stop watching porn and watch a couple of chick flicks and your realize there is more than just trying to get down our throat.
Every now and then, you have that magic moment. It is the kind of kiss that stays with you even after it is over. It changes you. I've only had the pleasure to experience a few of these kisses and the men have made monumental impact on who I am today. I may despise a few of those guys and have completely different relationships with them now but I can still feel the first kiss. It's the one good feeling you never want to let go of.
I'd gladly welcome my last first kiss, because that only means there will be plenty more new first to follow. But for now... I better practice so I know it's perfect when the times comes!